Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Epilogue

I thought it was about bloody well time I posted this. It’s been six months since I left China. Five of them were spent at my parents’ place, regrouping back in Ann Arbor. This last month, however, has been another, rather significant readjustment.

Two days after my twenty-seventh birthday, I packed up my Honda Element with practically everything I owned and moved to Alexandria, Virginia. Since then, I’ve been acquainting myself with the Washington, DC area, loving the museums, the architecture, and of course, moving in with dear friends from Wyoming.

Now that I’ve had an acceptable grace period after leaving China, I can look back and honestly say I am glad I spent a year abroad, going far outside of my comfort zones. There are still times (more often than I would have expected), even after six months of being away from what I’d become used to in China, when I notice differences between the Chinese and American cultures, and I find myself still making the occasional comparison.

Surprisingly, there are elements of China that I find I miss, or that, looking back, I really admired about the country. The public transportation system, particularly in Beijing, was miraculous, now that I am experiencing our own American version. When I lived in Beijing, I was immediately astounded by not only the availability and ease of the system, but also the expense. You could go practically anywhere for less than the equivalent of a dollar a day. Here, the average commute on public transport can be around ten dollars a day. This is a cheap alternative to a car?

There are also odd times when I’ll overhear a Chinese conversation and think, hey! I actually understood a few words of that! Yet, I find it difficult to believe myself when I tell people that I’ve spent a year in China. They ask me questions and I have a hard time answering with what I’m sure they want as a quick and easy answer. The trouble is, there isn’t one. It’s a complicated answer. And when I do find the words, it doesn’t really feel as though I’m telling the truth, as though the inquisitors are expecting more than what it was. However, when I think of some of the things that I put up with, some of the cultural differences I learned about, and all the hurdles I trampled on and tripped over, I’m convinced that I had one of the more unique abroad experiences.

But, when all is said and done, I am very glad to be back in a country that does not make being a vegetarian practically impossible. And now that I have plans that will hopefully take me through future adventures, I’m encouraged and curious about what the next step will bring. Living in DC will be an exciting adventure in itself. Already, I’ve been dazzled by the architecture and the surrounding buzz of what it is to live in the Capitol environ.

I’m determined to continue writing and have decided to begin a whole new blog, not simply just for DC, but one that will encapsulate all locales. This blog will actually be split in two: One, the Traveller’s Edition of Peregrinus Poeta, will just be a diarrhea of prose, I’m sure – one that may explore where I am, both geographically and intellectually, even if that changes. The other, the Writer’s Edition of Peregrinus Poeta, aspires to be simply a self-indulgent whining of the struggle of writing. You know, something all writers tend to do.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Saved the Best for Last

Today, the Great Wall of China - Changcheng. My aunt Marty and I hired a driver to take us to the Mutianyu section (about an hour outside the city) and back again. This is the section of the Wall that I’ve heard the most about. Not a lot of tourists – I could count on two hands the number of people there today. A good exercise, with steep gradient and large stretch open to the public between hazardous areas. And cool ways to get up and down: we opted for the cable car on the way up, and louge/toboggan on the way down. I felt like I had my own Cool Runnings taste of the winter Olympics.

It was the perfect day for the long haul. Sunny, warm, hardly any wind, and serenely silent. Most of the snow had melted, so slippery wasn’t much of a factor, even if vertigo was. The last leg we traversed was an incredibly steep incline, but well worth the climb. It took several breaks on the way to the top, but once up there, the view took away any breath we had left.

We spent two and a half hours trudging up and down the steps, scaling the slopes, and snapping as many shots as my shutter allowed. But I have to say, the louge ride down was pretty exciting, having never sped down a mountain side as such speeds before.

So, on my last full day in China, I ended my time here with a big bang. All I have done in the past three days has been extraordinary; and if for nothing else besides the Great Wall, I would tell people to come to Beijing.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Expat-Turned-Tourist

Yesterday being the last day of Chinese Spring Festival – the day of the Lantern Festival – it meant that it was also the last day anyone was allowed to set off fireworks within the city. That being the case, this morning the streets and alleys were littered with the detritus of these noisemakers. There were moments last night when I thought I was in the middle of an air raid.

But today, I crammed in a marathon of sight seeing in only about six hours. This, of course, after being wakened at 4:00 am to watch the Canadian/USA Olympic hockey face-off. Being American-born, I was routing for team USA. However, my entire family is Canadian (and I have dual citizenship); so it only felt right not to be too sore of a loser. Besides, it is fitting that they won, hockey being their national sport and all. That, and they would have probably drowned me in the toilet, otherwise.

This morning, I went back to the Forbidden City and this time was able to go in. After several major temples that all seemed to have similar names (Hall of Heavenly Peace and Tranquility, Hall of Harmony and Longevity, etc.), and entering and exiting through so many courtyards, the Imperial Gardens and surrounding “city” is incredible. It is a maze, a labyrinth of inner temples, small shrines, tiny courtyards, and ceremonial rooms dedicated to so many ancient arts. It is so easy to get lost in there – and I nearly did.

In the afternoon, I made my way over to the Summer Palace (in winter snow) and befriended a small group of lovely British travelers. One was living and working here in Beijing, and the other two were visiting as tourists. We decided to link up and walk around the gardens together. I'm so grateful we did, because, looking back on it now, the grounds within the walls of the Summer Palace are vast and twisted. Just like the Forbidden City, it would be easy to spend days in there and not get to it all.

The beauty of this place is practically indescribable, especially with a new powdering of snow. It is hard to believe you are in the middle of an enormous city. Once inside the grounds, particularly once you have climbed up and over the “mountain,” sound is so muffled that it could almost be called silence. To me, this was one of the best features – a getaway from the noise of the city. I felt like stopping on the path and writing a poem in the snow. But I was too damn cold.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Squeezing It All In

In the spirit of send-off, since I've booked a flight back to the States for this coming Wednesday, I thought I would spend the last few days I had left in Beijing doing the typical touristy things one normally does when in a foreign country. Even after living in Beijing for three months, I still had not seen the Great Wall, Tian'anmen Square, the Forbidden City, or the Summer Palace. So, I figured that would take up the majority of my time over the next three days.

Today, after having lunch at an Indian restaurant with my friend Tara, we took the subway to Tian'anmen and snapped a few pictures in the snapping cold. Unfortunately, I was forbidden entrance into the Forbidden City, since its gates close at an early 3:30 in the afternoon. However, we did climb the peak of JingShan Park ("Hill of Scenic Beauty") to take an aerial photo of the Forbidden City rooftops - something that looked entirely different than what I had expected.

After a day of shmoozing Mao, I believe tomorrow the Summer Palace is in order. If I finish early enough, I may make it to the Forbidden City on the way back from Summer Palace just in time before it closes for the day. However, I'm going to have to conquer tomorrow's challenge of sleep-deprivation, as the entire household has set our alarm clocks for 4:00 am. When you live with Canadians, watching the final Olympic hockey game (Canadians vs. team USA) is mandatory. Of course, I'll be the only outcast, routing for the Red White and Blue. Stars and Stripes, baby!

Tuesday's agenda: the Great Wall.

Friday, February 26, 2010

You win, Red

I was watching a bit of the Olympic speed skating yesterday morning while waiting for the next train to SanYuanQiao for another job interview. As I watched, I felt a lot like one of those skaters – never the one in the lead, but always a few paces behind… the minute they catch momentum, they must turn another corner and every pathway suddenly becomes congested; they are blocked once again from gaining a promotion on the ice.

Yes, I feel a lot like that. My second job interview this week was another disappointment. I showed up, but they didn't. I'm tired of being jerked around. On top of that, the latest development: my aunt and uncle are moving back to North America come the first week of May. So, as of Cinqo de Mayo, I will no longer have a place to live in Beijing.

Walking to the subway station in the morning, a familiar song got stuck in my head. Daughtry’s “Going Home.” Not the greatest song, but one of whose lyrics I’m currently jealous. Then, I realized that, for the past few weeks, maybe longer, I have been given scores of "Yankee Go Home" signs. It's time I threw in the towel. It isn’t giving up at this point, is it? I’ve tried to make a go of it. Even so, I guess I must admit defeat. China beat me down. I got submitted.

If I go, I resign myself to shacking up at my parents' home in Michigan for six months, just until I move to the PhD location - wherever that may be. Better to struggle through the job hunt in your own language, though, right?

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Just when you think you're safe...

A gloomy day today. I woke up this morning to a rejection email from one of the eleven PhD programs I applied to. I was not accepted. Total bummer. Ten more replies left. I’m waiting in agony.

Then, I had to travel an hour and a half outside of the city for a job interview that I thought would be the perfect solution to my joblessness. They want to hire me, but now I'm not so sure I want to accept.

So, because I am a tad anal retentive, I’ve made a list of pros and cons for two job prospects: the pros and cons list for the school outside the city, and the pros and cons list for taking on private tutoring once again.

The School - pros:
*Meet cool international folks
*A more interesting curriculum to follow
*4,000 RMB airfare reimbursement
*Nice living quarters at the school during the week

The School - cons:
*Hell of a commute
*Food, especially vegetarian, will be an issue (they serve only Chinese... with lots of meat)
*Less salary than expected without the ability to add more hours
*Must cover all expenses for working visa, including another trip to Hong Kong that I cannot afford
*Boring location, surrounded by nothing... even the trees look like stiff soldiers that aren't allowed to grow wild

Private Tutoring - pros:
*Probably make more money, if I keep a good schedule
*Control my own hours
*Food will not be an issue
*Live with family and do not have to commute back and forth on weekends

Private Tutoring - cons:
*No airfare reimbursement (but I'll probably be able to make it through working more hours)
*Probably a more boring curriculum

Hmmm... Easy decision. I think I'll be more comfortable staying in the city and taking the tutoring jobs when I can get them. If I manage my time wisely, I could make up towards 20,000 RMB each month - double what I expected to make at the school.

I wish so much that I could stick my pride in my back pocket and just fly on home. But I don't want to be a coward. I really don't. I am just so tired of struggling to keep my head above water. I just keep thinking that I only have to put up with this for five months. Then, I'll look back and be proud that I didn't crumble and come running home with my tail between my legs (however tempting that sounds). But what would I be coming back to? I'd just have to do the same frustrating job hunt at home. Only, I would be doing it in my own language.

When I got back this afternoon, I had a cup of tea to calm down. It helped me to regroup. So, tomorrow morning I have another interview and I begin the whole rigamarole all over again. This time with a tutoring agency. Next week I have another interview, in case tomorrow's doesn't work out. And there's another one on hold as back up.

Tomorrow should be better.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Blood Ties


So, it's true. You sign your name in blood to get a good job here in China. Today, the school that is hiring me sent me to have a medical examination, a thorough physical. ECG, ENT, chest x-ray, and a partridge in a pear tree. You name it; they did it. I even had to spill out three vials of blood. There you go, China. Now you own even my DNA. Remember the days when couples used to have to get blood tests before they were allowed to be married? I'll find out on Friday afternoon whether China and I are compatible. Something tells me I may end up with a false positive. But as long as it gets me a paycheck for the next five months, I'll endure the temporary custody of matrimonial obedience. Then, come mid-July, I'm getting a divorce. And I'll be damned if I have to pay alimony. First marriages are just test drives anyway, right? You should always marry for money at least once in your life. I've got mine over and done with. Next time, I'm getting hitched the old fashioned way.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Back to Beijing… again

It’s hard to believe, sitting here, back in the apartment in Beijing, in minus four-degree temperatures (celcius), that two days ago I was in Sydney, Australia, riding in a stretch limo, drinking champaign, and attending a Chinese movie premiere.

That’s right, after two weeks in paradise, the pièce de résistance was an evening at a red carpet event, complete with pre-dinner fashion show, opera singer and Chinese lion dancing entertainment, and live auction fundraiser. The cognac and wine were free-flowing; so combined with the champaign I’d had in the limo, I was a pretty happy camper. Granted, I was a little exasperated, having to sample more Chinese culture when I was on a much-needed hiatus from China, but what the hell.

Between the fresh air, the sun, the scenery…

... getting in some pool time with the aunties and getting my salt water fix (a cure-all for everything)...

…and having a few moments to catch up with my mother…

… I feel sated. So now, after being pampered with gourmet dishes, some of my favorite foods…

…(and sometimes slipping slightly out of vegetarianism to partake in delectable seafood. Yes, that's lobster scampi on the counter there, folks – sorry, crustaceans)…

and top notch champaign, I’m back in China to finish the final stretch of my year abroad. Back to tomato and cheddar on toast. Oh, but they won't be fresh tomatoes from my aunt's garden. No, no. And the toast will not be soy and linseed - just average, pale, wheat toast that's been sitting on the shelf a tad too long and cut in the most bizarrely perfect squares.

And did I mention that I got to ride in my uncle's candy-apple red Ferrari... three times??? Yeah. Vroom, baby. All that, and I got a tan to boot - not an easy accomplishment with my alabaster skin. It is easy to see why so many people decide to make their homes in Sydney. It is truly spectacular and I believe, if I could afford it, it would definitely be the perfect place to live.

How do you leave this place without wanting more?

Friday, February 19, 2010

Buzzing Down Under

This past week has been chock-a-block full of wonders and surprises.

Two days ago, the beauty of Stanwell Park and Illawarra reared its head and gave us a spectacular hike on the Wodi Wodi track. We climbed halfway up the mountain, until the path became too steep for those of us not in shape. The scenery here is like nowhere else on Earth.

After our hike, the aunties and I drove into Sydney for a day in town. I got a second go in my uncle David's Ferrari, which of course revved my engine way up.

In the city, after a family fashion show at the house on Darling Point, we were dropped off at the infamous Opera House, and walked the Writer's Walk around the harbor, stopping only for a nice cappuccino and banana bread, before heading out to the most adorable little Italian restaurant. I swear, I've gained two kilos since I've been in Australia.

The next day, back at the beach house in Stanwell Park, the aunties and I decided to check out the hottie hang-gliders up at the top of the cliff. Little did I know that, two hours later, I would be jumping off the cliff myself. Hang-gliding is something I have always wanted to try. For years and years, since I was little, I've had dreams of flying. You know those dreams? Where you suddenly lift into the air and feel like you could do anything? Well, hang-gliding is pretty much like that.

Was I nervous? Maybe for about a second, before I started putting on all the gear. But my tandem guide, Curt, was an excellent instructor; and, according to Curt, I was a good student pilot. Incredibly, when we were up in the air, far above any birds, he let go of the controls and let me steer myself around the clouds. As I looked below, I searched for sharks or dolphins in the water, but saw only blue-green waves and whitecaps.

The contraption is easy to handle, surprisingly. It obeys your little shifts in weight and immediately feels apart of you when you're dangling up there like nobody's business. It was peaceful, and the wind was perfect. Landing even feels like you've been doing it for years. Imagine doing this every day of your life and making a living out of it. Curt agreed, he could think of nothing else he'd rather do. What a lucky dude.

Seriously, one of the best experiences in my life. Do it. You'll never regret it.

But as if that weren't enough excitement... when I returned to the beach house, my inbox had a new message: another poem accepted for publication. Look out for the 2010 Spring Issue of The New Plains Review, folks. I'm in the Special Selection for poetry. Pinch me! No, wait. Don't. I don't want to wake up from this.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

The Merry Old Land of Oz

There is a simple and reasonable explanation for my recent blogger silence: I didn't want to blow my cover.

For the past ten days, I have been trying to keep a secret from my mother. Since she sometimes reads this blog, I decided any and all blog posts should be put on hold until the reveal. Believe me, when a mother knows her daughter as well as my mother knows me, you understand why I cannot risk even the slightest slip of the tongue - or type.

My mother's 69th birthday is this Friday. Her sister in Australia invited her to the beach house to celebrate for two weeks. The big present? Me.

My mother's four sisters, spread all over the globe, joined in efforts to arrange this outstanding surprise. I was a little worried at first, thinking we might need smelling salts and the paramedics on speed-dial, just in case. Still, I couldn't wait to see the look on her face after being parted from each other for nearly ten months - the longest we've ever been without a visit.

However, in my efforts to book a flight out of the Red Tape Zone, I was thwarted time and time again. Oh, China. I thought we were at a cease-fire?

At first, there were no flights available that we could find, simply because we are smack in the middle of the Chinese Spring Festival. Basically, the entire country checks out from mid-January until the end of February.

Then, when we found a ticket, my name was too long to fit on the ticket and the reservation was canceled. The consequences of being raised Catholic.

Also, a useful fact: China isn't exactly simpático with many foreign credit cards.

But many endeavors later, I finally got my happy ending. And I was right. The stunned look was priceless and a camera was ready to capture the expression. For the occasion, one of my aunties produced a giant gold ribbon that I tied in a bow around my head. I was, in effect, a present, personified. Perfect.

So, here I sit, sunburnt on the beach, soaking in all the non-polluted goodness of Aussie-Land, and loving every hedonistic moment. Besides being reunited with my mother, the best part of it all is the view. Sure, the ocean is stunning, the champaign is bubbly, and the beaches are out of this world. But ladies, there is nothing like a hot Aussie surfer/jackaroo to get your blood pumping!

Heaven may seem disappointing after this place.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Tea City



After being here for just over a month, I decided it was time to follow my cousin and his girlfriend to their bi-weekly trip to the tea market. I had a feeling it would be quite an experience, but I had no idea how much I would learn.

The particular tea shop that the couple frequent is just at the end of a long corridor on the ground floor of a large building out of many that line a district entirely devoted to tea. The woman who owns the shop (Luo Ping) has known Jocelyn for many years and calls her by name (Xiao Hui) as she greets her.

We sat round the only table in the tiny shop, which was littered with wet tea leaves and covered with an enormous tea tray, containing clay pots, glass pitchers, and small tea cups. A little girl’s tea party dream come true.

It didn’t take any time before we were already sampling our first flavor. It was a flowery green tea, which tasted like a light perfume.

But the main reason we were here was so that Jocelyn could sample different levels of Rock Tea. This was the second kind of tea we sampled. Unbelievably, there are 820 types of this particular kind of tea. It gets its name from the leaves that grow on rocks in the mountains. Each mountain has a different flavor, and each rock adds its own particular taste; each one is unique.



With traditional Chinese tea, each pour is called “Pao,” which actually connects both the steeping and the pouring of the tea together as one act. There is a name for every Pao – some more poetic than others. The first Pao is a wash and isn’t to be drunk, despite the fact that it is poured into each cup as though we would. Instead, it is turned over and the tea drains from the tray, emptying our cups for the second Pao and first tasting.

Before the first Pao, however, Luo Ping will wash the pot with hot water, dump it out, and place new, dried leaves inside. She covers the pot and shakes the leaves inside. This is called “Waking Up the Tea” (something I believe would make a great title for a poem).

After the tea is awakened and in between each Pao, Luo Ping reaches across the table and gets us to inhale the levels of aroma of each Pao. On the third, fourth, and fifth Pao, that’s when the flavor really starts to come out. The difference between one pour and the next can be considerable or marginal. I found it to be considerable, more often than not, with each type of tea I tasted today.

The second Pao is named for the man who made the small cups we drink out of, whose name escapes me now. The third Pao is to signify “Mother Feeding Child. But apparently the fourth doesn’t have a name (or at least not one that Luo Ping or Jocelyn knew of).

Occasionally Lu Ping would pour boiling water over the surface of the clay pots. This was called “Breath Over the Face.” Everything in the tea ritual sounds like poetry to me. The clay pot is porous and with each Pao, the flavor of the tea is absorbed into the pot. This is why traditionally you use one pot for each type of tea, changing pots as you change teas. This way, over time, the tea takes on more flavor as the pot absorbs more of the leaves’ aroma.

Our third type of tea was a Wu Long tea (Oolong for us western folks). Its name: “Black Dragon Entering the Palace.” Technically, however, “Wu” is not black, but a shade lighter. A deep charcoal, if you will.

After our third type of tea, an apprentice tried her hand at the fourth type. She was not as steady or confident and I noticed she had a hard time with her hands as she poured the tea or held the pots.



The fourth tea was a white tea – my favorite of the afternoon. The dried leaves smelled like hay and made me think of a barn. It was, at first, off-putting. However, the taste ended up completely different than the smell: slightly sweet and pure and nicknamed the “Silver Bud,” because it is taken from the best leaves of the plant (the top of the stem). It is said that this particular tea is said to be the healthiest of them all. When I drank this tea, I felt as though I was doing something good for my body. It has a cleansing feeling and soothes the stomach (definitely a bonus for me).

The fifth tea was a red tea called “King of the Red Tea.” The awakened dried leaves smelled a lot like jasmine – or so Jocelyn and I thought. However, the wash makes the leaves smell a little less flowery, a little less sweet. The second Pao was less strong, but brought out more of a spicy flavor. This particular tea was weaker with each Pao, but tastes like the tea I grew up with. On the final Pao, it tasted more like molasses. It is from the southern mountains of China.

The sixth tea was Ripe Pu’er (pronounced Poo-Ahr). The difference in grade between old and ripe Pu’er is in the way they make the leaves. Old Pu’er is dried and deeply burned, whereas ripe Pu’er is compressed and not as fried. It isn’t just age that separates the two branches of Pu’er, but the method of preparation. The second Pao tasted a bit like the dentist’s office, so I wasn’t a big fan. It is from Yunan province.

The final tea was another Wu Long, very like the previous Wu Long, but much stronger and a better grade. It has been more deeply burned and dried. This tea has to be made with super hot water (unlike the white tea, which you can make with warm water, if you are ok with waiting longer for it to steep). With green tea, you can burn the leaves with hot boiling water if you don’t let the water sit before the Pao. For this Wu Long, I found the taste was better after each Pao and the more you drink the more you like it.

With the seventh tea, Luo Ping brought out some Dove chocolate (the kind with hazelnuts and raisins – yum!), which was supposed to compliment the Wu Long. She was right. It changed the flavor of the tea and brought out the sweetness in the chocolate.

Luo Ping’s husband then walked in with their three-year-old son, an absolute doll who knew quite a number of English words. We shared the chocolate with him and he recited a young child’s poem for us with three words to each line that teaches morals. It was a cute cadence. All Chinese children are made to memorize it.



Altogether, we sampled seven different varieties of tea. Each variety gave us at least four Pao, which meant I made repeated visits to the squatting toilet in the back of the shop. It was a lot of tea. That being said, there is a saying that you can get drunk from all that tea. You can be physically drunk, just as we get when we drink alcohol; but you can also be drunk in your heart. I think by the time we were finished, I was a little of both.

When I was drunk of heart, I asked if Luo Ping’s position as tea pourer had a name. As we call our wine stewards Sommeliers, the Chinese call their tea pourers Cha Yi Shai (Tea Artists). Fitting, I think.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

A New Leaf - Possibly Bamboo


Ok, China. Truce. For real this time. Today, I shall reform.

Tonight, as I lay in bed, trying very hard to go to sleep and not having very much luck, I concluded that my attitude and behavior needed to change. Now.

For the past 8 months, I have done nothing but blame China for all my troubles. I cannot do this any more. True, this country has its fair share of frustrations and tribulations that would make any westerner feel steamrollered and snookered. The censorship, the pollution, the roundabout way of getting nowhere, the spitting, the noise, the construction, the food, and the sheer, staggering what-the-hell of it all. It is indeed overwhelming. But the blame should not rest solely on Red’s shoulders.

I admit I’ve been living in the past, wishing things could be like they were before I came here. This year has certainly not been an easy one. Leaving Wyoming was something I did not want to do. I had established a life and a home there. It was, by far, the best two years of my life; and, to be yanked out of it, I felt no less than devastated.

However, I have had to plow through transition depression before and made it through. This time should be no different. And it is time I pulled myself up from shadow again, recognized my surroundings, and looked forward.

So, as of tomorrow morning, when I wake up, there is a new sheriff in town. I’ve decided to take more advantage of the culture around me, especially since I have been thrust into a temporary – albeit seemingly indefinite – state of unemployment and boredom.

How have I been in this country for this long and not taken time out to discover some of its ancient poetry? Shame on me. In China, the most exulted position you can claim is to be a poet. How marvelous!

It was just yesterday that my cousin’s girlfriend brought out some old Chinese poetry and read it aloud for us. I noticed the unusual cadence that seems to take precedence over content. These poems are not at all concerned with cliché or sentimentality, but rather with the tones that pair off like one singing lark to another. They, like Shakespeare’s plays, were meant to be heard, not read.

My current goal is to immerse myself in some of these poets, such as Li Bai 李白 (the poet that J. read yesterday), and see if I can distill some of the qualities that the Chinese regard their poets to possess.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Literary Identities

Yesterday at the Bookworm, one of the waiters, as he was on break, was looking at a magazine at the bar. I was sitting at the counter on my computer when I noticed he looked back and forth from me to the magazine and back again. He turned the page over so that I could see it, showed me the photo of a woman in an article, and asked if I were she. I smiled and said no, but he seemed to think I was not telling the truth.

For the rest of the day, he showed the photo to his fellow co-workers and each of them in turn looked up at me, as if to check his face-recognition accuracy. I got several more giggles throughout the afternoon.

Today I'm back. I haven't been approached as a celebrity look-alike, but have been diligently trying to conjure up a new poem, vis-a-vie my new fascination with the Southwest.

During one of my strategically-timed lulls of procrastination (because I refuse to call it writer's block), I looked for writing jobs online and found this:

I'm a freelance features writer looking for real life stories, particularly womens' interest. Do you have an inspiring tale to tell - something shocking, unusual, inspiring or funny? It could be about anything: health, love, phobias, relationships...You will be treated fairly and your story will be written accurately. And, of course, you will be paid - from around £200 up to £2000!

I thought, now that's something I could do for a little extra pocket money. But then again, how many of us want our dirty laundry aired in public, particularly when your name is given such a prominent byline?

Of course, there is an element of fiction in everything we write, even if we are writing an autobiographical account or memoir. The act of writing always makes things more theatrical and thus it cannot ever be 100% true, right?

So, what about poetry? Granted, this particular call is for stories, but when thinking about the general question of fiction vs. fact, how many of us read a poem and automatically assume it is autobiographical? So many poems are written in first person; yet the poet's inspiration could have been so loosely based in reality.

In essence, comparably, if I send off a few "real-life stories" to this advertisement, how are they to judge what is real and what isn't? After all, I could have very easily told that waiter the woman in the magazine was me.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

If I were a fruit...

This in response to a recent post by lapetitefleur:

Many people may read this as the kind of question Barbara Walters would ask in an interview in her later years on 20/20. However, for a food lover and a poet, I’m inclined to answer thoughtfully.

If I were a fruit, I would be a blueberry.

Reasons being the following:

That I love berries of all kinds, but blueberries happen to be my favorite, with raspberries close behind.

And if I were a blueberry, I would grow wild on oceanside bushes, breathing the sea air as it rolls in off the coast.

Because the taste for blueberries can be satisfied in so many ways: They are the perfect way to start your day: breakfast. They are delicious in oatmeal, blueberry muffins, blueberry coffeecake, blueberry pancakes with blueberry syrup. They are beautiful as a garnish, perfect as a snack by themselves, or an addition to a more substantial dish. You can even make blueberry wine, as my aunt Denise does from her garden in New Brunswick, Canada. And then there is my grandmother’s blueberry pie.

They can be sweet or sour, bitter or perfumed, an ambrosial fragrance on your palate.

Because they stain your mouth with the deepest blue, as if the berries were rich and filled with secrets that could only be released on your tongue, as though those secrets needed to borrow your mouth for a voice.

Blueberries are petite and feminine. They are plump and round and smooth. I like the feeling of holding a bundle of loose blue beads in my hands as they tumble around between my palms, like black pearls off their string.

Because they are good for your heart, like so many of the good things in life that give us pleasure, like wine, dark chocolate, tea or coffee, a good night's sleep, yoga, spring cleaning, poetry, an afternoon in the park, or falling in love.

I think I need to start a food blog.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Things That Nourish

Still no word on when I'll start my new teaching gig. So, while I wait, I've been experimenting with a few 'comfort food' recipes. You know, the old staples that we turn to on days when we don't feel like being fashionable with our food. We can, however, get slightly creative with these old hats.

This weekend, I found a recipe online for roasted chick peas. The flavors of chili pepper, lime juice, and cilantro sounded exactly what I was in the mood for, but when I read what the final product would be like, I changed my mind. It was designed to be a crunchy, crispy finger-food snack for the afternoon. Instead of roasting them for forty-five to fifty minutes, I only warmed them in the oven for about ten minutes, to let the flavors gently waft together for a bit. Then, I popped it all in a blender and poured a massive amount of olive oil in the mix, with a little bit of sugar, and voila. Delicious hummus. Always a favorite fallback dish.

Last night, as I wandered around the corner grocery store and wondered what I felt like eating, I saw a dense, grainy bread, covered in pine nuts and remembered that I still had half a block of Irish Gouda in my fridge. Light bulb: open-faced grilled cheese and tomato soup. Dessert was inevitable a few spoonfuls of the all-powerful Nutella. Thank goodness for imported food.

So, between stuffing my face and waiting for my job to commence, I'm trying to write a little poetry and submit to journals. My new obsession is the desert and its barren beauty. Beijing sometimes reaps the effects of the Gobi Desert (sandstorms and whatnot), and so I think part of me will want to write about this soon. Now, however, I'm more focused and fascinated with the American Southwest, a place I've never actually seen firsthand. I also have begun to write about Wyoming, something I was not able to do when I lived there. Absence is the perfect fount of inspiration.

Thanks, by the way, to all the literary magazines that have electronic submission options. Otherwise, I'd be up to my eyeballs in overseas postage fees.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Back to Beijing

It was a thirty-hour train ride back to Beijing. I left Shenzhen at 10:55 a.m. on Tuesday morning, and arrived in the cold north capital on Wednesday afternoon at 4:20 p.m. The length of this particular excursion would have been grueling had I bought the same type of ticket as my trip down there. However, sometimes you've got to spend a little extra money for the comfort and convenience that keeps you from throwing yourself under the rail.

My luck blossomed and I found that not only did I have the seat-sleeper that I wanted, but I had the entire berth to myself. Folks, this never happens, especially not in a country of 1.3 billion people. I smiled the whole way.

As the past few weeks have gone by and since my recent move from Hangzhou to Beijing, I've considered retitling this blog. After all, I no longer live anywhere near the Yangtze River. Nonetheless, after careful thought, I've decided to keep it as a reminder of what I originally set out to do. My strength has been tested and it has wavered over the past eight months, but something keeps my head aimed straight ahead, determined to drive forward and see this through to the end. And you know what? It's been worth it. Things continue to get better.

The night before I left Hong Kong I received an email. A job offer. The perfect job offer: teaching high school students English literature at an international school just outside the city. I sort out the details on Monday and, hopefully, by this time next week, will have a contract.

However, if there is one thing I have learned from dealings in China, it is that I mustn't get my hopes up too high. Typically, they promise you the moon, sweep you off your feet, and reel you in; then, just at the very last minute, they disappoint you and all promises are forgotten. I keep hoping each time will be different, but so far I have yet to be right. Maybe this time...

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Hong Kong Island

After a lovely breakfast of coffee and croissants, I crossed the border from Shenzhen into Hong Kong and through customs to get the stamp on my passport. Visa taken care of. One check on my list taken care of.

The night point of order was to take an hour-long subway ride into downtown Hong Kong on the Kowloon side, in order to don my tourist cap and find a city bus tour. Luckily, it didn’t take long to track down a worthy vessel.

Our tour guide was Roger – Londoner of Hong Kong parents and one who says of his tourists: “You are all the same to me.” The British accent made for comforting narration. But the first thing I noticed when I hopped on the bus was a “no spitting” sign just above the driver. It’s the first I’ve seen in Asia and thank goodness for it. One whole day without hawking loogies. Bliss.

Roger’s motto of equality didn’t last very long when he was burdened by an Indian family who thought it perfectly acceptable to run an average of ten to fifteen minutes late each time we disembarked on a port/point of interest. After three rounds of this, Roger got fed up and passed a petition around for the rest of us to sign. “I hearby give leave for us to depart at the agreed times, with or without all group parties.” Or something very like. When the head of the family was shown the petition, there was no more tardiness and the day went on rather smoothly. Roger means business. After all, he has been a tour guide for 31 years. Well done, Roger.

The other passengers seemed quite docile and content to follow the leader. In front of me was an adorable Spanish-speaking couple from Colombia. Having never taken Spanish in school, save for half a semester in grade seven, I was surprised at how many words I knew and how much of their conversation I could follow. Granted, I couldn’t identify entire sentences or even long phrases, but quite a lot of words. Most of this, of course, is from its close relation to (and my foundation in) Français. The Romance/Latin-based languages would be easier for me to learn than Chinese, for sure.

This led me on a brief tangential daydream. I have pushed Spanish away for so long, thinking I always liked French better, that it was the superior language. Now, though, I find Spanish more and more beautiful, and French more and more pretentious. This, coupled with the reality of living in the United States, is one of the many reasons I really think I should learn Spanish. Its functionality, for starters. It would be useful, especially in the Southwest.

Enough of that. Back to Hong Kong. We took the harbor tunnel to the island, where our first stop along the way was Man Mo Temple, dedicated to the gods of literature (Man) and martial arts (Mo). In this particular temple, there is a large red pole. Atop that pole is a brass hand, holding a brass pen. Legend has it that if you rub this pen, you will be rewarded with literary inspiration and receive good scholarly marks. I took two turns.

Second highlight was an incredibly steep (the world’s steepest, so I’m told) tram ride up to Victoria’s Peak. Unfortunately, as our tram climbed the mountainside, so did the fog. When we arrived at the top, I felt as if Irish weather had blown all the way over from the Emerald Isle. Luckily, it didn’t completely impede the photo ops.

At the peak, I was told I would find the highest Starbucks in the world. He could not have mean story-wise, because it is on the ground floor of the building and Shanghai’s is number one on that front (or it could be Seoul, South Korea – not 100% on that one). Did he mean elevation? I’m sorry, Roger, but Vicky’s only goes up to a little over 1,800 feet. There are definitely plenty of cafés at higher elevations. Laramie, Wyoming, for instance, is over 7,200 feet, and they’ve got two. But I Googled it, just for kicks, and the highest store elevation is at 9,600 feet in Breckenridge, Colorado. I should audition for Mythbusters.

Moving on. Point of interest number three and my favorite part of the tour: Aberdeen fishing village. Took a little ride on a sampan (Chinese flat-bottom boat) and toured the harbor. It felt great to even be near water again, let alone on a boat. I turned into a shutterbug and here snapped the most photos. I do have a thing for water and boats. This was definitely worth it. By the way, the water here is surprisingly more turquoise than I thought it would be. Still wouldn’t swim in it, though.

Next stop: the jewelers. We toured a factory and I realized that I do not need a $1.2 million dollar diamond. Only one around $2,000. I’m a simple girl.

We then drove up and down around the mountainside and looked out of the bus windows to the bay that led into the South China Sea. By this time, the fog had lifted and we had only one more destination to go: the Stanley Market. For me, this was a bit of a drag, since I’ve come to know (all so well) the markets in China. This one was nothing special and, as far as I’m concerned, highly priced, even after bartering. However, I did indulge my scarf addiction and purchased a long, tan and dark brown pashmina with paisley design. I’ve got quite the collection going. I’ll have one from each city: Hangzhou, Shanghai, Beijing, Hong Kong…

Alas, one stop we omitted from the designated itinerary was “Deep Water Bay Lookout” at Repulse Bay. We drove by it and stopped along side the road to try and snap a few photos, but the sun had gone down and the light was gone. The beaches looked lovely, though.

So, at the end of the day, all was well. I headed back to the Chinese border, got another stamp on my passport, and made my way back to the hotel in Shenzhen. Tomorrow morning: back to Beijing. Another twenty-five hours on a train. Seat choice: I got smart again – soft sleeper.

An interesting fact I learned from Roger today: According to the Chinese, evil spirits cannot turn left or right. “Chinese people are superstitious, not religious.”

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Two Days in Hong Kong

Like everything else in China, the visa system requires a round about way of giving you permission to be here. For the next two days, I am in Hong Kong. Shenzhen, actually. I made the twenty-five-hour train ride from Beijing and nearly didn’t live to tell the tale.

I said that my travels from Hangzhou to Beijing were amongst the most comfortable I’ve ever experienced. This was the exact opposite. However, I only have myself to blame. This time, instead of choosing the same, cozy soft sleeper that I had before, I decided to economize and deal with the hard sleeper. Definitely not the right pick.

Instead of a nearly-crowded four to a berth, the hard sleeper squeezes six – and with no doors. You are on display as hundreds of people walk past your narrow bunks, inconsiderately kicking your shoes aside and under the bottom bunk where you are sure to find them covered in grit and dust bunnies.

I had the very top bed and I am amazed that the other gentlemen who shared the space with me could fit between their platforms and the ceiling. I now have a rather tender bruise forming on my head and my neck feels as though it has forgotten what it’s like to be straight.

The most annoying bit was the noise. It must be obvious to readers by now how much I value peace and quiet. But none was to be found on this train. Announcements were a constant companion over the loud speakers. Between said announcements, they insisted on playing, without pause, Chinese opera music. For those of you lucky enough to never have heard such soundings, it is comparable to a midnight duel between two dying cats.

In addition to the background noise provided by our hosts, were the numerous passengers with cell phones. I must confess to being one of them. Halfway through the trip, my mother phoned from Michigan and I was ever so glad to hear her voice. Unfortunately, she could barely hear mine over all the racket that surrounded me.

I’ve decided to be smart and, on the return trip (planned for Tuesday), I will purchase the soft sleeper. There are just some things that are well worth the money spent. That is one of them.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

"Beijing Snowstorms and Housebound Productivity"

Earlier this week, Beijing was hit with a rather rare snowstorm. As a result, we were all motivated to trek down to Hou Hai for a family outing. My uncle and cousins decided to rent ice skates and go out on the lake for a couple of hours, while my aunt and I thawed our fingers around a hot cup of coffee. After the thaw and being reminded that my fingers do not easily - or painlessly - thaw, I haven't spent too much time outside since that excursion.

But before I excused myself from the frostbitten fun, I spent a few minutes slipping and sliding around in my boots and took a few choice photos of the gang, gearing up for their time on the ice, as well as the strange skating-bicycles that seem to be the popular thing for young Chinese children on the ice. The lake hadn’t been entirely cleared yet, but uniformed officers pushed the snow into piles on the ice and made paths for all the skaters.

Productive days can only be called such because of my renewed devotion to poetry. And my belief is that the most recent troubadour fever is a result of not wanting to go out in the bitter cold and trudge through the dirty snow, left over from the blizzard because there is no such thing as a snowplow in Beijing. So, now, after a few days of being pent up in the apartment, a new poem has been added to the mix and I believe, after deleting lines, adding stanzas, finding the right words, reacquainting myself with the thesaurus, and doing a tiny bit of research on the Southwest (a new fascination), it is finally ready to be submitted to a few places.

In other news, the job hunt is at a current stand-still. I was offered a position at an international school just outside Beijing. It’s a lovely campus and I’d have a great schedule, a good salary, and would be living there during the working week, spending weekends in the city with my aunt, uncle, and cousin. Perfect. However, as often happens when dealing with Chinese employment, the terms have been altered last-minute, and I don’t know where I stand at this point. We’ll see. There are also possible editing jobs in the wings. Still, I am not a patient person and I hate not having a job in the meantime.

I should also mention that last weekend I went to see Avatar in 3-D. I must say, it exceeded my expectations. It still annoys me that Chinese audiences talk through movies and don’t bother to switch off their phones, but at least the theatres in Beijing are cleaner and warmer than the ones in Hangzhou.

Between times when I’m writing or spending time with my family, I’ve been reading as much as I can get my hands on. Yesterday I read a short novel by Gabriel Garcia Marquez, called Memories of My Melancholy Whores. Toward the beginning of the book, I had to stop and write this quote down:

“I have never done anything except write, but I don’t possess the vocation for talents of a narrator, I have no knowledge at all of the laws of dramatic composition, and if I have embarked upon this enterprise it is because I trust in the light shed by how much I have read in my life. In plain language, I am the end of a line, without merit or brilliance, who would have nothing to leave his descendants if not for the events I am prepared to recount, to the best of my ability, in these memories of my great love.”

Friday, January 8, 2010

Tapas and Other Good Munchies

A few days ago, I discovered an amazing tapas restaurant at the Village (section of the foreign district devoted to western shopping and restaurants). The tapas place serves incredible goat cheese bruschetta with fruit and nuts, which makes for a rich and decadent way to start or end your meal. I also tried the Spanish tortilla (egg and potato). It was delicious, but there was some small element lacking to give it a final oomph factor. But it is great with a Perrier lime.

I had to return for a second tasting. This last time I had a wonderful wild mushroom risotto, which is so filling and hearty, it stands as practically a meal all by itself. However, since I love to have variety, I also ordered a small dish of Spanish ciabatta, consisting of a small square of ciabatta bread with super garlicy tomato spread. It isn’t the cheapest restaurant, but still affordable. Each dish averages around 35 yuan, but my risotto was 52. Pricey, but worth it.

The decor of this tapas restaurant is what really impresses me, especially in China. It is very clean, but has a style of decorating that is both comfortable and inviting. You have the option of sitting in lengthy, dark purple couches with colorful cushions before earthy-looking tiled mosaic tables with IKEA brand dishware (yes, I looked at the labels under the plates). The large artwork on the walls are attention-grabbing. I love large canvas pieces. These are all done by the same artist, most of them with a dark red background, some of them with only a large pair of dark eyes peering through the red, or a single large leaf, like an etching in blood. Very cool.

On the other side of the Village is a Mexican restaurant, where I plan to sample a few dishes some time soon. There is also a Turkish place just around the corner that I’m interested in trying. I can’t say that I have ever had Turkish food, but as long as they have several vegetarian options, I should be good with it.